I can’t stop thinking about you and the prayer that you left on the prayer wall:
“Please God, Find Me”
When I read your prayer, I was not only deeply moved, but I actually stopped in my tracks. It happened a few weeks ago when I went into the sanctuary in the middle of the week to get something I had left behind. The church was so deliciously quiet, except for the occasional ‘pops and cracks’ that happen when the afternoon sun warms the roof and sets the Rose window ablaze.
There were your words, sparse, boldly honest and so dear…You had the courage to write down what I (and so many people) feel and don’t cry out; in the darkness of the long nights, in dreams and nightmares, in cars or hospital rooms, at dinner, at Starbucks, in the bank or the supermarket, or when no hope seems to exist.
The fact of the matter is, I wish I had had the courage to write out this prayer — your prayer — on the prayer wall,
each and every time I feel despondent, rejected, dejected, lost, alone, afraid, lost, or all of the above. But you have and so now it’s there for all to see. And to hear. And to pray. For you. For Me. And for themselves.
But here’s my prayer back to you. And to me and to all who will see and pray your prayer.
I pray you discover that: You are already found. You are already known. You are already loved; fully, completely, unconditionally, no matter what. In fact, You are already etched on the palm of God’s hand.
“The LORD has forsaken me, my Lord has forgotten me!,” cries Israel. Then Isaiah responds on behalf of God:
“Can a woman forget her nursing child, or show no compassion for the child of her womb? Even these may forget, yet I will not forget you. See, I have inscribed you on the palms of my hands; (Is 49:14-16)
And since we’re in Advent, awaiting the arrival of the light, THE light that is so bright, the darkness will not overcome it, read Luke: 78-79: “By the tender mercy of our God, the dawn from on high will break upon us, to give light to those who sit in darkness and in the shadow of death, to guide our feet into the way of peace.”
So, Anonymous, you may feel lost or forgotten but you are already found. You may just need to be reminded how
precious you are in God’s eyes and heart. And since God knows how hard it is for you to believe that, God sends
you (and all of us) God’s Son so that we can see the love ‘coming down’ to us and for us, again and again each Christ-Mas.
I hope this gives you some comfort. And I truly hope to find you and meet you, whoever you are, among all the other seekers who are watching and waiting and hoping for the same.
With hope for the Christ-child with you,