Search Me God and Know My Heart, Psalm 139:23-24
23Search me, O God, and know my heart; try me and know my anxious thoughts;24and see if there be any hurtful way in me, and lead me in the everlasting way.
God knows me best. He knows what is in my heart; my anxious and calming thoughts; my tears and laughter; my joys and sorrows; my selfishness and my loss of control, but still I question: does He really know me and forgive me or is it that I want to believe that He does? Are these sinful thoughts on my part or am I asking too much of God for forgiveness?
I ask Him to show me signs that cause Him pain, so I can do better and walk the path He wants me to walk – the path of righteousness.
I know I have caused much pain in God’s eyes for not following His “plan for me” but it is not because I intentionally desire this, but because I become too busy in my own selfish ways.
I believe God has a vision for my life and is involved in every part of this life. I feel Him close and He is continuing to lead me to an everlasting journey. Am I worthy of His (God’s) loyalty? Pray that I am!
Be near me, O God. Stay close and free me of my sinful ways. Lead me through each day and night, so I may walk with you on this everlasting path to righteousness. Amen.