11 For surely I know the plans I have for you, says the Lord, plans for your welfare and not for harm, to give you a future with hope. 12 Then when you call upon me and come and pray to me, I will hear you. 13 When you search for me, you will find me; if you seek me with all your heart,
There was a time in my life where I was on the bottom. I cannot even describe how hard and difficult that time was. Only those who have been there know how it feels. Years of struggle, disappointment, and being bullied allowed the devil to seep into my soul and eat away at whatever was good in my life. It’s amazing how this can happen and how you can be so blinded by darkness. My sophomore year in college is when it all came crashing down and I had finally hit my lowest point. It was at this point that I was fully prepared to end and remove all the pain, suffering and struggling I was enduring. On that fateful day, I went for a walk in a wooded area where I kept repeating over and over in my wounded brain how I would end the pain. As I walked, I came across a field, which oddly seemed to call to me. I walked over to it and as I walked into the field, a beam of warm sunlight hit my face. It was at this exact moment that I realized I had made a terrible mistake, the terrible mistake of wanting to end it all. I then fell to my knees, sobbing and begging God for forgiveness for what I had done, forgiveness which I did receive.
Years later, reflecting on what had happened, I realized that this bright warm beam of sunlight was God calling to me; that he had plans for me… what they were, I did not know, but I DO HAVE A PURPOSE on this earth.
I wish I could end this devotional by saying my life has been perfect since that fateful day. It has not. But I am now a stronger person. When the darkness tries to set in, as the devil often tries to do, I now step back and take a moment and remember, that God has plans for me and for us all.
Daily Prayer – I hope and pray often that all who are suffering find their bright warm sunbeam and listen for the words of God.